Debbie Seah

Stop crying your heart out,

2012-01-25T23:59:00.002+08:00

This song's great ;) It's awesomeness cannot be described by words so just listen ok.

I used to think of a list of things I would want to do with you if we got back together. And I thought I would very much like to note it down. So here it goes...

#1 - I want to watch you in your matches, to be the gf that supports her bf, I had the chance to but I didn't want to. Cos honestly, part of me didn't think it was the best for you, and the other part was afraid to see you get hurt.
#2 - I want you to spend a whole day with me. Without either of us having to leave at some part of the day, mostly it was you and your training.
#3 - I want you to hold my hand in front of (our/your/my) friends. I always thought it was just your character, but I guess I don't really know you, do I?
#4 - I want to marry you.

Ok I know #4 sounds really absurd but that was the first person I ever felt this way for, I don't cry about that person anymore, or feel anything for him at all (swear, if it works). It's been one year plus since we split up and I used to think (and maybe still do) that I wouldn't ever end up with anyone else other than him.

Honestly I didn't think I could like someone that much. If I had the right to use the word love, I would on him. He's like a fairy tale.

Ok back to reality, Stats at 8am tmr and have got to study for POM in 15 days - that's not long after considering procrastination and buffer time.

Last presentation of Year 1

2012-01-19T23:17:00.001+08:00

(Mel, Don, Serena, Qq, Me, Jiajia, Wanhsien)

After our econs presentation on Wednesday! Our last presentation for year 1 and in this class, quite sad knowing we are gonna split up just when the class was finally bonding :( And although our class splits into cliques always but still.. :( :( I hate this feeling like when everything goes well then something bad HAS TO happen. Pretty shitty.

Studied at the airport with Mel and Donny last Sat, apparently Mel's first time studying there hehehe. I used to study at the airport quite often in my secondary school days but normally they were like kinda unproductive and slacked.

Some other day when the girls came over to laze around I love Ape's camera cos got front camera, I want a new camera :(

I want Chloe perfume!!! Anyone knows where sells perfumes at cheaper price? My current scent has been used since like uh mid 2010 cos at first it was a present from the ex and I bought it again, he uses the male version but I guess he doesn't anymore.. This thought kinda fucks me. Anyway that's not the point, I can rant about that shitass loser as long as I like but nvm, uh I put the picture here so in case you wna buy for me you won't buy the wrong one ok thanks ;)

Besides, I don't think love should cost anymore than love.

Steamboat!

2012-01-08T00:15:00.001+08:00

Walked around Bugis with Lyddy & Gloria while waiting for the other two girls to arrive, got this dark green + leopard prints blazer which is useless. Wastemoney#1

When ahead as planned to have steamboat, and honestly I dislike food(stalls) that are cooked or prepared or run or whatever by china people. I just don't like the food!! Not the people. It felt like I spent $22 eating crabstick and mushroom and seaweed :( Wastemoney#2

Anyway went over to April's house after that to see her newly adopted toy poodle, hehe so fragile but adorable!!

Presentations are starting this week, then study break, then finally Semester Exams. Debbie, persevere. [1000sadface]

Micky & Mas!

2012-01-07T01:31:00.000+08:00

My lil baby had 2 front milk teeth fall out today! If I knew I would have plucked it out for her so I could keep it :( Shall try to find it tmr, but I doubt I can cos it's too tiny like uh 0.4cm plus she most prolly would have eaten it. Mel Mel came over and we messed about some stuff hehehe ^^

These pictures don't do Kobi justice :(

Anyway went for a jog just now and jogged from Tamp to Simpang Bedok area, finally made my 6+km mark!!!! Omg first time in my life. I'm growing up.

We saw these 2 cute puppies - Micky and Mas! My fringe nice hor, V shape. Thanks.

Bebe and kobi!

2011-12-27T01:02:00.004+08:00

Bebe's my cousins doggy. She's huge and strong, she drools like mad and keeps digging holes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Super cute! Her tail's like stronger than Kobi's whole body, cannot wait for Kobi to grow up and be like her he he he.

Rainy Picnic Day

2011-12-25T00:08:00.009+08:00

Went to Hort Park on Friday!! The weather was great at first but then... you know.. all good things come to an end :(

Start of the broadwalk!
Pretty pretty PRETTY awesome and beautiful place!! Plus kind of nobody (except for the occasional passing by of the cleaners and two/three people)

See la I need to take picture myself cos this slut scared of one centipede then don't dare to come over!!!! Poor me :(

Vines forming a super nice rectangular frame actually :( :(

Started our picnic! Made with blood and sweat. Not exactly blood but..

Burnts.

This picture so does not justify the pain and redness and the one million oil splatter marks on my hand k ;( Even my feet got one patch cos of oil splatter lor :(

So awhile after starting our picnic it started raining, kept getting heavier ugh and it went on for a long time... fucking long time.

Got horribly bored.

Messed around with hair, watched some kind of ghost video

Then I took some creative(artistic) shots... Aiya you get what I mean by bored now don't you? By then it was like the 2nd hour!! Still stucked in the shelter with rain splashing in and ok la like mist. Cold like shit leh :(

Supposed to look like ice hor.

Escaped from that shit shelter when it drizzled :'( Mad sad never even walk 200m of the broadwalk then got stuck in the shelter for almost 3hours.

Anyway it continued to rain for like the next hour we left so ya.. Went over to city plaza after that.

It's the 25th of December already! I wish everybody a Merry Christmas ;)

Plus we have a Lamma coming up (not exactly)soon he he he.

I miss,

2011-12-21T01:23:00.006+08:00

Kobi puppy. I suddenly realised how much she have grown, it's been almost 2 months since she have become part of our family and she has already gained 5kg and grown so much.

She constantly reminds me that time doesn't stop. And frankly, sometimes when I think about her death - prolly 12yrs later tears will well up in my eyes. This dog makes me super emotional.

I remember this day we ate loads of fries
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I remember this day I drew eyeliner on him, and he styled my hair. This was in 2008.
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I remember when this was us.

I guess tonight's just one of the nights I feel something, but I wouldn't change a thing.

Oh well, a nice song

Planning picnic now hehehe ;)

Nua days

2011-12-20T00:10:00.006+08:00

Berry's finally back from Perth!! With a gf also... finally ;) Went to town with them the other day - have been kind of busy with school - my dates and days are messed up. Got back some results and I guess it's alright hm.

Have been kinda busy trying to maximise rest time and gladly, the 2 weeks break just started! Great. Watched tv for like 10hours straight today cuddling my lil Kobi on the couch and enjoying the stormy day.

Some nua day..
I DAMN F BLACK SIAN

Wa Lyddy so pretty here must do her justice for all the nonsense we call her ;) <3

0530tmr

2011-12-07T00:55:00.000+08:00

My hair so Q and ugly cos I just woke up from a nap plus drooled on it la K?

Posting from my bb ;) This 2 weeks have been pretty much tensed but finally all the ICA1sssss are done! (Except computer one) Quite shitty but nvm 10% only - self consolation.
Got to wake up in prolly another 4.5hrs, something that has been bothering me for the past year should stop soon I guess. Ha. Goodnighty!

-Can never put my hate for 8am classes into words

Fat peguin & fat seal

2011-11-26T00:41:00.005+08:00

Had dinner with the brother at Swensens today!!

They came over for a lil while after that to play with Kobi, she like them more than me lor that cheap bitch ;( sian.

Caught Happy Feet 2 after that! Atticus (the fat penguin) super duper cute!! His belly giganormous :') I want a penguin!!!!

This is Atticus! Can see his tummy?

Atticus lose to the seal! The seal damn cute omg!!!! F fat like pig then like keep wanting to fight ahahahahah

Mad tired right now. Got to wake up early tomorrow for dental then study for macroecons ICA1 and do tutorials :( WHY SIA

Kobibibibibi,

2011-11-23T18:31:00.003+08:00

Actually she's a wolf, just abit fat so look like dog.

Today I helped Lyddy burst pimple...... and finished Eff ws blog post :( Tmr got 3hours computer lesson again. Macroecons ICA1 next Wed. I am so sad.

Btw support my sis!
Order tarts from their website and facebook!!!!!!

Donny - Jonny - Melmel

2011-11-19T13:48:00.019+08:00

This week flew past so quickly! And I'm so so so so glad that POM report and EFF WS test is done. Honestly (I guess) this is like the first test I think I can get a decent pass... Stupid is stupid la, also not I want one :( Hopefully can ok.

More SAM's pictures from JJ and Jonny. Picture quality too nice to not post ahahaha

If you noticed, QQ and the guy beside wearing same shirt damn funny pls!!!

Few weeks back I think? Went for dim sum with the girls, hope their A levels goes well ;)

This Lyddy best at acting coy!!!

I have no eyedeer why my eye looks like that... Like so swollen, or izzit xtra humongous eyebags, maybe fishballs idk....... anyway it wasn't whatever. PICTURES ARE DECEIVING. I always think those large large eyebags got lines one look like fish cheek meat lor aiya nvm nobody will understand one

Went to sing k yesterday with DONNY, JONNY and MELMEL.

Jonny at first didn't want to go one, cos he shy. In the end right he sing louder without mic than Donny and I with mic hehehehehehe we compete with him until my voice hoarse lor.

My melmel sing until very happy lor! At first act don't want sing also!! (Ok just kidding cos I know she will find evidence for me again ahahahahah)

Sorry no pictures of Donny, cause all the pics I took of him super duper unglam. And I not so heartless :) Ya I know I nice k bye bye

I am made for SAM!

2011-11-12T00:45:00.013+08:00

A very artistic photo of hair, to start off with ^^ Nice right.

We went to SAM today cos had to do project ;( The last time I went there was like primary school lor, still hang water bottle I think.

Johnathan say he rather take nice photos so he pose pose

Very excited Johnathan and @AnnoyedDon

My face rly fat until fat.

Entrance of the museum!!!! Qq says museum is spelt as : meseum. Sigh cannot correct him, if not he call me squidward fml.

There were like 3 cameras so I think we took like about 9 shots just there.........

WE(MOST) THOUGHT THIS WOMAN WAS REAL FROM AFAR!! Hahaha melmel and ahyap same height hmmm.

Donny pretending shy.

This 2 pictures very awesome.

HE RIGHT SELL ME CIGS LIKE 2 YEARS BACK THEN WE BAOTOH HIM HAHAAHHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHA SO QIAO I SEE HIM THERE VERY HAPPY

A lot of backsides, apparently cannot enter to see that picture if you are not 18 and above, the room had a wall with a hold just at the butt height for taking pic of butt............

See the flowers and grasses thingy on the wall? They are like swaying(side to side) damn damn damn cute!! Still got hidden piglets hoho.

Trying to take a nice picture.. without the Q.

ANDY WARHOL (If i'm not wrong)

Wanhsien so white I also want :( She same height as the thing then the lighting just nice :(

QQ so scared his butt burn

I help QQ take photoshoot shot. Just kidding.

TAY,...

...And his very giganormous-upsize-$1-only fries.

Pictures from Melmel!!! Woke up at 5:30am, 2am now. Half dead k bye bye.

About 2 animals and a few people,

2011-11-05T23:18:00.011+08:00

Haven't blogged about something mentally sound for the longest time hehe. So, finally got a new family member - Kobi and she shits like... 5 times a day. She's teething and keeps wanting to chew me seriously so angry with her when that happens!!

Super tough woman, she runs around like mad then slips and fall hahaha. She so cute ;)

The 2nd animal, which according to Wanhsien is - very hard to accept.

Last week we went to Holland Village for dinner and discussed about this rabbit head pig butt creature because QQ started it and we kept arguing that it was a guinea pig... We sat at the table and laughed at our nonsense so long ^^

A very happy Q.

So because of IT we went over to Nex to check-IT-out and it was really ugly. IT was a skinny pig. A kind of pig - Guinea pig. REALLY DAMN UGLY I TELL YOU $500 FOR UGLINESS OK.

K nvm, saw a goldie there mad cute and his/her tail wagged so hard it kept hitting us love love love love!!!!!!!!!!!

This was 2 weeks back, went to IKEA Alexandra with the girls.

Shameless self timer shot he he.

Purposely wrapped in cow skin to show JJ's dad cos she cannot eat beef.....

These 4 polaroid shots were hard earned. Went around finding nice backdrop plus had to assess aunties to guess their camera skills, then shamelessly ask them take one k. 4 times.

Ice cream maker at IKEA, they will give you this token coin like metal thingy then you are supposed to insert the thingy in the ice cream maker and place the cone there then it will put the ice cream!!

Most of the pics from Mel mel and JJ!

And yesterday I cut my fringe cos I realized my dream hair won't come through soon ;(

Caught the movie - In Time just now, pretty good.

I have been doing my tutorials, I hope this lasts :)

Because love takes time,

2011-09-25T02:04:00.008+08:00

About someone whom no matter how far he goes, I will always miss him who started with nothing.

About someone whom I never felt such a strong feeling for, someone that allows the lil kid in me to dream about marriage, about the future, about forever.

As I type this, there's so so many things running thru my mind about someone. I know I promised myself not to mention him again but oh well.. I think this is bad. I can't decide whether I'm being sensitive, but I am cos you mean a lot to me. I don't know whether this is disappointment or not, you know how much I told myself to trust you, to believe you and to wait for your call? You know me, maybe not very well, but well enough I guess.. Why place me as last priority always? Behind your dream, behind your friends. If not your ex gf, I'm also a friend right?
All along I have been unsupportive of your dream, but recently, I saw your fight video, I saw your training photos, then I realised that look on your face, that smile on your face, that happiness plastered on is something I can never make happen. I wanted to tell you today that I don't know why but when I saw it, from the bottom of my heart, I support you. Probably I was too skeptical about it, probably I didn't believe your determination, or even you. But you know what? Whatever makes you happy, makes me happy too. For some reason, I can feel your happiness when you win, your heart put into it when you train and your love for it.
Every time we talk it's like butterflies in my stomach all over again and even after so long, it's like being nervous yet shy but comfortable with someone that feels so close to heart but distant physically. Every time we stop talking it's like this bout of sourish feeling, anticipation, hopefulness that forces me to look forward to the next time we talk. It's like uncertainty accompanied by trust that it won't be the last.
Whenever I realise other girls existance in your life, whenever I feel affected by little things you said, I'm like the jealous, sulky, insecure ex gf. I always miss you, when you had nothing to do everyday and always called me up for lunch after school, when you were always free for me.
I know this is stupid, I know this is unrealistic but I miss it when you were nothing but there we were. There we were happy together.

I know you don't love me anymore, but it's alright.

This feeling so overwhelming,

2011-09-24T00:29:00.005+08:00

Can we - Michael Carreon

I’ve been wrong before but I know that this is love
And we were meant to be believe me
And I know the cracks in the glass will make you wanna give up
But nobody said it would be easy

Lets get away
What do you say

Can we go somewhere far and take sidestreets
Can we go somewhere fun and play games
Just as long as your right there beside me
We don’t have to do anything

Can we go out and take stupid pictures
Can we eat too much then fall asleep
Can we take off with no destination
Can we stay home and not do a thing

And oh I took the time
To notice how much you shine

Nobody's ever taken seriously anyway,

2011-08-02T01:21:00.002+08:00

Why is human relationship so fragile? Letting go of unhappiness used to be difficult, now its so easy. Ought to suck it up anyway.

Rough mess,

2011-07-25T22:11:00.005+08:00

Karaoke on Sat with the usuals.

I will sort myself out and ignore everything that makes me upset, hopeful and sad.
And will fucking finish studying in time for exams. Will.

Oh life,

2011-07-12T22:27:00.003+08:00

It's scary being here isn't it? Can something nice happen right now pretty pls?
It's not supposed to be like this. Really.

Until the sky falls down on me,

2011-06-26T23:06:00.004+08:00

I wanna stand with you on the mountains, I wanna bathe with you in the seas~

School resumes tomorrow, not looking forward at all. Past 2 weeks had been shit loads of fun!!!! Damn damn awesome. Oh I didn't touch my books at all.. I ought to die. Seriously?? Hur hur. ICA 1 results coming out - definitely going to be terrible. I really fucking hate poly life, other than the great company, it sucks.

This long distance is killing me,

2011-06-13T00:40:00.002+08:00

I feel so accomplished right now ^^ Hehehehehahahahahohoho why I so smart one. Anyway my Peiqi in Malaysia, I miss you you btr hurry up back k asshole, I love you!!!

Back to start,

2011-06-10T00:30:00.006+08:00

We were mad (happy) the past few days, did so much nonsense. Love them :') Hey on second thought, I like it when my hair's pushed up in hairband, I like having no make up on, I like perspiring like a dog, I like running around, I like doing childish things - we blew/spat saliva at each other, ran around, piggy-backed each other, did stupid dances, say stupid senseless things.
That, I can only be, with them around. I love them.

I'm dead tired from school, I think i'm gna fall sick soon. Oh welllllll

You hear me?

2011-06-07T22:58:00.003+08:00

Dai Yin Mai

The past week has been pretty much the same - bad.

Lenis, regardless of whether you read or not I hope you know. I really didn't mean to shout and scream and whine at you when I did. If I don't, you never will listen. Rmb the time when I scolded you? I never wanted to live life without you, I did it cos I know we won't be together again. Cos it's not better for me having you hanging around me, entering my life whenever you miss me and wna see me. And eventually having you disappearing for a few months again.

Rmb the chalet last November? Rmb I shouted at you and you just walked off? Rmb when you could just go days without talking to me, much less calling or texting me? Rmb when you used to get so annoyed when I disturb your sleep? Rmb always ignoring me and giving me the cold shoulder when you just wake up? Rmb the time I screamed and cried at you at the park? Rmb my birthday? Rmb you wished me on the wrong date? Rmb you rather go eat with your friends then celebrate with my friends and I? Rmb the many times we argued about you getting the Thai tattoo? Rmb the times when I urged you to go school? Rmb when we argued over you having a stable job? Rmb the times when I bugged you to not go trainings and spend time w me?

Know what? I always told myself you were tired and stressed from trainings. You know how sometimes I cry bcos of the bruises on you? You know how sad is it to see my own boyfriend injured? You know how disappointed I was when I saw the tattoos?

Rmb when I used to buy lunch over to your place every Sunday? Rmb I used to go over after school everyday? Rmb when I used to put lil notes on your bed? Rmb our picture? Rmb my picture? Rmb me making protein shake for you? Rmb I baked cookies for you? Rmb when you came over you always bugged me to cook instant noodles? And insist to put egg even though it can't be scooped up? Rmb you cycling me home? Rmb you always walked me back? Rmb you always must kiss me before I enter the lift? Rmb I always slept on your bed and stayed at your house, if I could, waiting for you to come home? Rmb you told Cla you would be w me for a very long time?

Why did you choose fighting as a career over me?

Since you insist that you don't have time and cannot make time for me and i'll be more miserable being with you then why do you keep coming back?
Since you insist that we met at the wrong time then when is right?

Apart from us, you know why I miss you so much? Your family.

I never thought we would ever be apart. At times I rly just wna go up to your place and sleep beside you till you woke up, then we can spend half the day lying in bed and then go down for a meal and slack around. So many times I called Cla up to ask about you, so many times I was waiting, waiting for you to wake up, waiting for you to come home, waiting for you to come over, waiting for your sms/call, waiting for us to have a chance to talk about things, waiting for your match to be over before we could solve matters, waiting for your answer, and then waiting for you to come back.

You know what went wrong? - I loved you more than you loved me.
Where are you right now? I miss you so much. More than you can ever imagine. This is a little late but baby regardless of what happened, thank you for everything, thank you for us.

So many more things to add on, I guess i'll stop here. And will never ever mention you again. We won't have to tolerate each other's nonsense anymore and I won't try to work this out already. We can stop here.

I feel so much better now.

2011-06-01T22:24:00.001+08:00

I very sad I want to cry. Can?

My 199,

2011-05-29T22:26:00.001+08:00

So happy around them hehe.

That's when I love you,

2011-05-24T00:11:00.002+08:00

I never wanted to push you away, I did because I knew we will never be again. Please don't be mad at me baby, I love you always. No matter what.

When you have to look away
When you don't have much to say
That's when I love you
I love you
Just that way

To hear you stumble when you speak
or see you walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love you endlessly

And when your mad cause you lost a game
Forget im waiting in the rain
Baby I love you
I love you anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what

So when you turn to hide your eyes
Because the movie, it made you cry
That's when I love you
I love you a little more each time

And when you can't quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
That's when I love you
I love you more than you know

And when you forget that we had a date
That look that you give when you show up late
Baby I love you
I love you anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what

That's when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn the more i love
The more my heart can't get enough
Thats when I love you
When I love you
No matter what

Please come back..

无条件,

2011-05-22T01:56:00.002+08:00

Have been spending much time with the clique lately, mad happy being with them. Today celebrated Brian's bday. And studied at the airport. Uh we did a lot of stupid things to Bernard and almost stripped him. Ah, pictures in fb.

I love the clique ♥ Family and friends have been going well. Studies... Hmm i guess not. Haven't been studying pretty much and ICAs this week. Damn, shall go to the library alone in the afternoon. Gosh need to buck up. Will be alright. If it's not fine, then it's not the end.

???

2011-05-15T23:31:00.001+08:00

Would you rather I post pictures or abt everyday stuff? I'm lazy to blog, but I don't wna look back and see part of my life missing :(

2011-05-09T18:15:00.000+08:00

And whoever falls in love first?
Loses.

I'm stuck,

2011-05-08T21:25:00.004+08:00

Clarke Quay with Mel last Thurs :) Damn mad hehe

Bnad drunk yesterday!!! Hahahaha "Damn it I want more beer!!!!!

I'm sure life will get sweeter :)

Pretty fucked up,

2011-05-04T22:11:00.002+08:00

4 things about 4 people.

1. Hidings, expectations, excitement, findings, disappointments, anticipation, outcome.
2. Ridiculous hypocrite, disgustingly sweet words, two faced, was treasured.
3. Gave all, thrown away, heartbreak, guilt.

4. Still loved.

No.4 makes me sad, very fucking sad.

Shi♥t,

2011-05-02T00:04:00.006+08:00

Went to town today, shopping abit fail but still nice aw wtf. K I need to do tutorials shit. Ugh im gna go sleep if not bad complexion, tmr then do hoho. Marina barrage tmr gosh :( Luckily I still have sunblock.

I don't believeee~

♥disgustingbrothers,

2011-04-28T23:00:00.004+08:00

We laid on the floor laughing. Nua around. So nice.

Poly,

2011-04-25T23:59:00.005+08:00

Okay so this is the 2nd week of school. Statistics, accounting, internet shit, microeconomics, oh and principles of management starts tmr. I really fucking hate hate hate hate hate IT. Fml and I suck at it too.. Sad :( School has been going really smoothly, and I've got great polyfriends like Melissa, Jeremy and Qinquan. The 2 guys rlly fucking hilarious always! I said this a million times but luckily I've got the 3 of them awww. Yay life's sweet to me. Only for this aspect. But i'm still contented :) On Mondays I always have to wake up at 5am, quite sad.. Shall go to sleep alr nightnight! ♥ I must be happy. And I will.

2011-04-24T00:18:00.009+08:00

I've officially graduated from tpss cos I got my cert alr! 4years there will never be forgotten. I love tpss.

So good Friday went over to airport to study w the girls then over to Marcus' church to watch a play. Left halfway though, day was great.

Oh and, last Thursday was Mels' 17th bday, so we tried to surprise her with a cake and flour her. But plan failed cos Jeremy was damn hilarious LOL. I'm too lazy to post anymore pics I wna faint. School has been good too!

Life's sweet ♥ I shan't complain for now.

BRB,

2011-04-18T23:57:00.003+08:00

BRB

Eatshop&l♥vesss,

2011-04-17T00:14:00.005+08:00

Went to town today, shopping was quite successful I guess. Bought 2 dresses, 2 pairs of shoes and a pair of pants. There goes my Guess watch :( Need to buy a bagpack for school man if not carry laptop = die. Wna buy highcuts too. Oh did I mention? Yesterday was buying makeup then I realise these people are making money out of womens' insecurities :( Makeup so expensive wlau!!!! Anyway ate with the clique walked around far east then went over to Simpang for dinner :)

Need to get stationaries for school and phew ezlink card shld be able to collect alr. CONCESSION YAY I hate adult fare. School's starting on Monday, will be awesome, just wna get all the admin stuff done and buy laptop and install some system thing and buy school books. Troublesome like mad.

I'm so glad I made the right choice to leave whoever I left, never going back.

Shitload of shit,

2011-04-11T22:54:00.003+08:00

Slacked around today. Han is back from Taiwan hoho yay.

Shnouldt be,

2011-04-11T00:27:00.008+08:00

My oily face nice right.

Worked at some shit fair the past 3 days, really very shit! But fun though :) Ser and Bernard came to meet me aft work yesterday and Shawnie treated me to BK, aw. Was damn super duper happy with them ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ :)

I'm so tired but I refuse to get off the com, I think the emo in me gna unleash it's power.. But I refuse to unleash it here k. Wtf.

I realise I really need to get out of this and I need to control myself better. It's okay, will do so.

Aqilah & Joohwee,

2011-04-06T02:32:00.005+08:00

Went to town with Aqilah and Joohwee today, been ages since we 3 went out aww. Shopping was shiok hoho. Anyways, orientation's on Thursday, pls let everything go smoothly and be great :( And Fri, Sat & Sun gna be working at some electrical fair at Suntec hehe.

I miss bugging him not to go for trainings cos I wanted to be with him and snuggle up in bed with him the whole day and not let him sleep :(
Baby baby baby baby baby baby.

2011-04-05T00:50:00.002+08:00

Mild cramps and my back is aching madly. I'm dying. My arms and legs too fml fml. Anyway today went to do threading and waxing hohoho. Bernard did his eyebrows too LOL. Damn cute!! Shopping tmr, damn awesomeeeeee wohoooo!!!!

Carnival day & Bernard & Pengple,

2011-04-03T00:21:00.007+08:00

Today went back to tpss for Carnival day, was really damn hot but I miss school so so much!! Went to sing k after that :) Went to the zoo the day before yesterday and there was lammas and otters awww.

Random days pictures! Hoho.

My eyebrows damn ugly, time to go shape it fml.

Come to an end,

2011-03-30T00:09:00.004+08:00

Cineleisure with Bryant, sang k and played pool :)

多寧願只是爭吵還能道歉和好,

2011-03-27T02:29:00.008+08:00

Went up to Lenis's place today to play with bertbert hehehe, karaoke then went to jog. Shawn so damn fucking hilarious LOL. Bertbert and Edric also!! I wish he really was my brother, I wish I could be his sister forever. I'm nuts.

I give up,

2011-03-25T00:06:00.010+08:00

Lazy laze around day and eug's bday dinner at nighty yesterday. 85 for dinner today and walked back to Tamp from Bedok 85 cos apparently Eug and Tee were too full, no joke.

“I am free and that is why I am lost.” - Franz Kafka
Then, I guess you were too free that you felt nothing without me. I think this time I really give up on you and me and us. I miss you badly, and I'm sad cos we lost our future together, cos we lost us. I don't feel myself without you and I don't know what I was like without you.

I didn't have a choice ok?

Qwertyuiop,

2011-03-23T03:32:00.002+08:00

I am fucking unhappy, it's almost 4 and i'm still crying. Fml. Things shall go well today. I give it all up.

I will,

2011-03-22T00:47:00.002+08:00

I will get over this.

Dickslap you,

2011-03-21T01:43:00.004+08:00

Work cancelled so slacked & had dinner w the clique. Love them.

I really ought to sleep soon I look like a piece of shit z.

Do you remember?,

2011-03-19T23:58:00.006+08:00

I want a pair of diamond earrings.
And my furry tote bag.
And my black dress.

And so, Paulo Coelho says - When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.

Tarot,

2011-03-19T23:08:00.004+08:00

Played w tarot cards yesterday. Damn accurate abt the past, my future cards are all good hehe :) First picture is the rainbow I saw today! Hehe had dinner at Ikea w Soo, Dylan, Brian, Claudia & Jenia. Then went over to Soo's place and laughed at people like mad. I did something semi retarded fml.

Jesper Ang,

2011-03-18T01:37:00.003+08:00

Met Jesper tday been long since we talked, played pool and slacked.

我愛你 is playing on repeat and whenever I hear those 3 words I feel damn sad instantly wtf!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Zz,

2011-03-17T02:28:00.003+08:00

I hate this, I really do.

Irlyhavenoheart, ok?,

2011-03-16T00:24:00.007+08:00

Worked at IT fair the past past 4 days, slept like a pig at home the whole day yesterday and met the rest at nighty. The Lim and Han came over today cause of their failed swimming plan - thanks to the heavy rain, cooked pasta watched tv and had dinner with the rest at 85 at night :)

K wtf poly pls hurry up start and fill up my time, money pls come.

我真的爱上了,

2011-03-09T03:12:00.002+08:00

眼泪只准在眼眶打转
就像海浪抱著海岸
拥抱不等于拥有天堂
最后在爱我一个晚上
地久天长天大的谎
爱到了最后碎成碎钻碎成了星光

我爱上的是他笑起来的迷幻
我爱上的是他比我还逞强
我爱上的是他瞳孔里的太阳
我爱上的是我逃不掉的逃亡

最后我只剩下了一半
身体一半灵魂一半

永远找不到另外一半
以后难免会想起他吧
如果偶然只是偶然
为什么遗忘那么难忘那么那么难

我爱上的是他笑起来的迷幻
我爱上的是他比我还逞强
我爱上的是他瞳孔里的太阳
我爱上的是我逃不掉的逃亡

MONEH $$$,

2011-03-08T00:21:00.005+08:00

1. I spent less than $10 today after being out for 12 hours - working at Swissotel.
2. Worked 2 shifts, 12noon till 10pm.
3. Hotel's a humongous maze. Kitchens, back of function rooms, staff areas and so on are awfully huge and messy and confusing.
4. Nice and cool tho.
5. Tmrw gna work evening shift only, gna do a lil' shopping before that w Soo. Yay.
6. Time to start saving money - $1 a day
7. But before that, I need to get a nice piggybank first - Spend $
8. Fml.

You know what irritates me most? Whenever I wna buy something it'll always be the last piece - Camera, bag. THE DISPLAY PIECE. FML MAXIMUM. Hate it cause it has been touched by a million people, played with, worn on, annoys the shit out of me. Not disgusting meh? Z :( Life sucks hor...

IT FAIR COMING ALR, I SO EXCITED WTF!

I am someone that needs a lot of attention, love, care, security and I want to be prioritised. I realised you can't do it for me, and I can't even handle myself, so I left. Oh and, you didn't do anything wrong.

No more, no more,

2011-03-07T00:26:00.004+08:00

Town, Bedok Point, Kcccc, Tamp. Overall shopped and sang k with the usuals, so it was great whuuuuupwhup.

This drives me crazy. I need to stop acting this way. But today seriously started off badly, can't help feeling annoyed and unhappy and grumpy z.

I think I lost us this time,

2011-03-06T01:54:00.004+08:00

Out w my Ser tday, shopped like mad and caught My Ex. Made my day :) ♥

Kthksbye.

2011-03-05T02:40:00.001+08:00

Stay please,

2011-03-04T00:34:00.005+08:00

/Nobody to scold me and quarrel with me anymore.

Yesterday's, Han Chieh Jui.

Grandma's funeral today. Went over to meet Han, Eug and Tee aft that.

I feel terrible. I don't like the feeling of knowing someone else is going to fall asleep and wake up in his embrace. Mind fucks me. Bye.

So little,

2011-03-02T01:37:00.002+08:00

Soo. My classmate for the past 2 years. And my schoolmate for the next 3. My soon to be " colleague " and travel to/from school mate. LOL. K i'm lame.

Time to cut fringe tmr hehe. And finally enrollment completed tday yay. Quit my job of 3 months at Chinatown and gna work at the upcoming IT fair @ Suntec next week. No chance to search for my camera alr :( And should I get iPod touch 4g? Hmmm.
I WNA SHOP SO SO SO SO SO SO BAD.

Note(sss) to self :
Eat less oily and drink bird nest everyday = Nice skin,
check out languages lesson,
get poly ezlink and check out concession prices,
do after enrollment requirements,
buy a cheap+chio camera or get a iPod,
register for swisshotel job asap,
apply scar gel 3-4 times a day,
replenish face creams and make up,
bring bert out soon,
buy everything that makes me happy.

And save $.

DSL, RMB PLS.

Grandma,

2011-02-28T23:58:00.001+08:00

Grandma just passed away a few hours ago. Feels bad. Very.

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Hearthardted,

2011-02-27T23:14:00.002+08:00

Now you know why Han's Maths so good? Secret - Number boxers.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHOHOHOHOHOHOHOLOLOLOLOLOLOL.

Fuckkjskdbjabwgj,

2011-02-27T01:52:00.003+08:00

You know what sucks more than being unhappy? It sucks seeing someone feeling the same way you do - the same unhappiness. You know how terrible it feels, you know how helpless they are, just like yourself. But it is so damn contradicting to try and console them when you can't even help yourself? - Save yourself before you can save others. When you try and make them feel better you know you can't, cause nobody can make you feel better too. Gosh, then you look at yourself and the sadness pours in on you again. Then you will see what stupid and dumb losers they are for being sad over worthless stuff then you realise that oh, actually you are just like them. Worthless doesn't exist to them cause they are blinded. And oh again, you realise that actually worthless doesn't exist to you too. Then you see how helplessly they try to act like they are happy and fine, my gosh when a little thing happens they fall ugly. Then all their efforts of trying to act like they are fine hoping the hurt will go away goes down with them. Then they put up that ugly insincere and unhappy fake smile on their faces. Then you look at them and realise you are the same. Then you realise you are just as pathetic. And oh well since you can't make much of a difference you can only look at them, like how you're looking at yourself in a mirror.

Shit. Can you pls tell me what I'm trying to say?

Happy sad,

2011-02-27T00:21:00.007+08:00

So, today slacked around aft lunchy, played Monopoly deal, had dinner, caught 127 Hours, all with awesome company. Btw 127 Hours is super nice! And inspirational.. I very emotional one pls. But seriously the movie was so darn good. Me likey.

IT FAIR COMING HEHE HAPPY HAPPY. Shopping list out : Digi Cam, Mp4/3, Laptop, Garmin accessories. So happy just thinking about it whuuuuup.

K the enrollment into Nyp so complicated it drives me mad. Deadline's 1st March, gg.com :(

I don't know why, but I'm sad. Wtftfftwfefvhsaeba and I guess I was nuts yesterday to type that post, it's nonsense I can't even decipher what I typed.

A sad song :(

Bye.

Mu2,

2011-02-26T01:10:00.004+08:00

I am not enough.

/I think I realluy believe a futoewre. No i meant foevwetr. Yi bei zi? I beliebve in it so much I think it druives me nuits. Oh no I forgot, you're gnsa be someone elses' alresady saix.
-Heartbreaks

/oh no i think i am really mad. K i shall close my eyes typing., then i see your name all over my mind, Not very nice oh you eh. sugh ih sigh i, sad, Very in fact. gosh i could go on gotever, But maybe i will for yh rnrcy grw minutes. Is this burnng an eterankfkame> I ema wma nvr ley ho you know? You can feel my pain? gos.fd,I dont know what i dounf. Mf fosssssssss. hurta ao bS. nOT Happu anymore. rnjekgtkjrengvkjrabeiughvn

ONE LAST PORPER SENTENMECE,
Close your eyes, give me your hand darling, do you feel my heart beating? Do you understand? Do you feel the same?

K I go die until tmr first, I shall afk. Gosh bye.

Kun,

2011-02-24T20:55:00.001+08:00

好可惜，好心疼

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More pictures,

2011-02-15T23:41:00.006+08:00

♥

Back in 8 days,

2011-02-15T21:27:00.003+08:00

Yesterday's,

So. I'll be in China tmr till next Wed omg ): My love will stay here w you all k? Hehehe will be back when i'm back. Bbbbbye.

Tee's bday & CP,

2011-02-14T23:06:00.011+08:00

Celebrated Sister Tee's bday yesterday,

Went Compass Point w Tee to meet Jelly aft work on Sun,

Jaaaaaaasen,

Please stop emoing, see me see me? ^^^^^^ Smile.

That's it byebye.

No wait, today's Valentine's day ): Happy valentine's day! I spent it with my brothers and ya like that lor. Hehe what am I to complain about when I chose not to love huh huh huh? K la i'm happygurl_94 k.

I want to love all over again and have my heart broken again.. But I feel so. Numb to everything i'm going mad.

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K i was just kidding I don't ever wna love YET. LOL. BYE.

Let me go,

2011-02-13T01:24:00.003+08:00

I'm sorry I can't be your world
You know I love you, I really do
But I can't fight anymore for you
And I don't know, maybe we'll be together again
Sometime, in another life

Bludders,

2011-02-10T23:45:00.004+08:00

SIM & HAN. Sengkang, Compass Point aft worky. I luv the way this 2 beloved brothers teng wo. Make me feel loved, especially taiwan lameshit bruther. Tmr will be fine oki. Loves.

Hehehe I love life. I love shopping, you know how damn happy I feel when I buy something? Shiok.

I hate broken promises. I don't keep people that come and go with them. Bye.

Sentosa, F21 & March, ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

2011-02-08T22:25:00.007+08:00

Sentosa last Sunday. I wna shop shop shop. I likey, makes me happy hehe.

I'll be in CHINA from 16th to 23th, and after that I left 3 days of work! Woo. Then I wna go Universal Studios w fat fingers and shop and watch movie and play pool and sing k and eat awesome fuuud and spend days sitting at starbucks reading and spend time w my beloved sisters and clique since they are gna have their March hols and laugh at people with Ser and go jogging and spend money. Shiok. K la, but i'm still gna work w soo and t and the rest, some other slack job i guess. Hehehe, aw i'm so happy just thinking of MARCH.

Awwwwwwwwwwwww.

Jaysen Jeyson Jayson Jeysen Jaysan Jeysan Jasan Jasen Jeson Jason

2011-02-05T23:14:00.005+08:00

Thanks for today kor! ♥ Loves.

2011-02-02T07:10:00.002+08:00

What did we go thru to get here?

2011-02-02T02:10:00.006+08:00

Look at th beautiful wonderful post thn. Come on, I've feelings too. Everything abt you is him, hello? I'm suppose t stick by your butt while your mind's fked by him? Sorry, I'm nt tht 伟大. Can't you at least keep it t yourself. You're showing it t me everyday. Thr's no place fr two, I did wht I should. Yep, i threw it away, it's always me (: If you wnt t keep me out, so be it.

:) Bye,

2011-02-01T23:42:00.003+08:00

You all threw it away. Don't ever, ever, think of walking back in.
And thanks for removing the picture, change the background too.
Kthxbye.

Lenis,

2011-01-30T22:35:00.003+08:00

Cause today's another day i'm hurting more.

We will be again, when the inception is over. I believe, I hope, I wish, I pray, it isn't.

Thanks for letting me slap you so many times even though it made no difference, change no fact. You thought of her when we talked, when i was lying beside you crying. You ignored my existence and left me alone dying to get your attention. You thought of your stress and time, but never thought of mine. You couldn't even be bothered to quarrel or talk to me, when all I wanted so badly was to see you, hold your hand and talk to you. Even if I couldn't have that I want to at the very least quarrel with you, cause after that moment I will know you still care. You thought about working hard to chase your dreams, but you never thought of being beside me to chase ours. You kept saying you were working hard for the future, our future, to buy anything I wanted. But how does the future matter when we can't even keep the present?
Now part of you remembers me, now part of you realised my existence, now part of you treasures me, now I'm on your little drawer on your table, now you see us everyday when we were happy together.
At least I don't dream of you anymore, for the past week or so, I guess. Sometimes I really hate and blame you, for making me this hard, for making us this way, for causing us to fall apart. It's all your bloody fault, I can't even feel myself. But I still have to admit, I'm weak without you. Today's another weird day I'm unhappy without you. Gosh, I hate you. Yep, I'm fucking your mind again and no, it's not that you can't get it, it's cause that little part of your mind and heart left for me doesnt really bother. Cause after all, you took my love for granted. Did you not?

Over again. And again,

2011-01-30T00:48:00.003+08:00

You know I love you, I really do
But I can't fight anymore for you
And I don't know, maybe we'll be together again
Sometime, in another life
In another life

I'm tired. Why everytime you do this I hurt the same as the first?

2011-01-29T02:29:00.003+08:00

♥ Ngor hou oi nei

Remembered,

2011-01-26T22:25:00.006+08:00

Today
7:02am, Nanyang poly Business Management. I felt so goooooud.
7:19am, sat infront of the com, browsed fb and ate a tuna sandwich. I don't know why but I felt so damn contented with life. Nothing more to ask for. Ah, that xin fu de gan jue. So awesome.
8:58am, I decided to appeal when I reached Chinatown. So went to office then applied for leave, went home to get documents and went over to NYP, made up my mind and decided not to. K so now i'm happy hehe. I'm fickle like this :(
Went over to Bugis with T, shopped, bought what I wanted. Saw something and I was and am so darn guilty about it.

6:12pm, my heart melted when I realised someone still thinks about me.
" Nothing's gna change my love for you, you wna know how much I love you, one thing you can be sure of, I'll never ask for more than your love. " I guess i'm just used to living to see you each day. I guess I just miss you more today.

I'm happy today. I think I did what I should, I feel so. Different. Hehehe.

Getting up,

2011-01-25T23:14:00.003+08:00

I'm going to put everything aside and carry on with my life. Ever felt like no one's there even though the whole world loves and care for you so much? I failed to look at what I have, I only saw what I lost, and drained all my love trying to it get back. Many things flew past me as they saw how I chased the impossible. Nothing is impossible. I chased nothing. And I'm tired, I don't live to please others, if you want me in your life then tell me so. I will stop putting in the effort to keep some things up, cause maybe somewhere in time, somehow, in someway you made me feel like you don't want or don't appreciate it. I feel like I need a shrink. I felt this way for 2 fucking years and no I keep telling myself I'm fine. Everything keeps piling up and where am I to start talking about it? It doesn't make me feel better, neither does it remove the shit. And I want to be strong. So let's throw everything away and look forward, cause awesome things just keeps coming. And no, I know I'm not the only one hurt and wronged and trampled on. I made many mistakes, and I don't even know where to start about them. Know what? Whatever happens, happens. Suck on it.

Love & doubts,

2011-01-24T07:22:00.003+08:00

I have ears to hear, eyes to see, and a heart to feel. If you don't do or say anything, what am I to do? Yesterday's gna happen a gazillion times more. The sweet rlly not nice? :(

And woah fuck it's Monday again. Gosh. Work work work, on a happier note, I think pay's coming this week hehehe. School postings on Wed. Oh life. Zz.

2011-01-23T02:08:00.003+08:00

Clique outing never fails to fail :( Went cine and katong w the usuals. Met love. Then Eug at tamp hehe.
I'm so sleepy and shit I don't wna dream of L every night. My dreams make it seem like he's still a huge part of my life, drives me mad zz. I miss bertbert again idk why :(

Tmrw's Sunday, I hate Sundays, cause it's Monday after Sunday :( K whatever.

Love pls eat more sweets though you're fat.

Nobody stops,

2011-01-21T07:23:00.003+08:00

Life's a mean bitch, but it's okay i'm a strong girl :)
I'm sorry daddy and mummy. I'm sorry J. And lastly, I'm sorry Wj, sorry I broke your heart. Sadly no one feels me.
Got to leave for work soon, an hour train ride + super cramped train. GAH. Byebye.

Fickle like you,

2011-01-19T21:20:00.005+08:00

I'll protect our dreams to the best of my ability. We will be apart again before you know it.
Nothing was mine from the start, how did my heart break when it was yours?

Work is so tiring :( How much longer can I keep everything? I'm stronger than this, I can lie to the whole world but not myself. I miss bertbert.

Got lectured by parents two days back. I had no right to say anything, cause i'm wrong.

Another day of work tmr sigh. Kkk, happy post soon! :)

2011-01-18T22:12:00.000+08:00

Can you hear me?

2011-01-18T21:52:00.003+08:00

I have so many things to say, but words won't come out.

2011-01-16T03:00:00.002+08:00

Dear love, I want 3 years to become 11 years.
I'm madly in love with my bestfriend. Always have been, im finally facing it now.

Forever,

2011-01-16T02:51:00.003+08:00

Did it pass by, our love
Is it just a heart-breaking memory.
It's turning around, your heart.
Can't I catch it with my tears?

My love I love you, I love you. Are you listening.
My love, don't forget, don't erase, our love.

Can you see my tears, I long for you all day.
My heart beat when we kissed but now it's all a memory.

My love I love you, I love you. Are you listening.
My love, don't forget, don't erase, our love.

Everyday I long for you. That's how my day goes by.
Where are you?
I'm sorry, I'm sorry that I can't forget you.
My love come back to me, don't leave my side, please.

17+8

2011-01-09T22:53:00.004+08:00

Could you be there for me when I take my results tmr?

On 17th November 2010.
" I'm selfish, I'm unreasonable, I'm demanding, I'm jealous, I'm unhappy, I'm unsatisfied, I'm greedy cause I want you all to myself. Who says that just having your heart is enough? It's not enough, I want everything of you _|_ "

I dreamt of you again today, I dreamt you kept praising other girls in front of me. It hurt. But in the end you still came to hold my hand :)

When I lost you, I lost myself.
留不住你的心是我的错，怎么还忍心怪你?
I’ll be brave because the world doesn’t stop for broken hearts.
其实我不想道别那些过去。
我也想一辈子，为什么你要放弃？
这样我满足了。
Some relationships failed because one of them made the choice – to set each of the other free.
你知道我很喜欢牵着你的手的感觉吗？
这心痛你能明白吗？
So much of life ahead to enjoy together, so much to do together, so many dreams to chase together.
It will all turn out good in the end, if it's not good, it isn't the end.

Darling, in case you didn't know, my heart never left yours.

2011-01-09T00:18:00.002+08:00

幸福

Went up to your house with Ser when you were at gym today, I never felt so happy in a long time. I saw the same scene, just the same before I left. Played with the pets with bertbert, talked to your mum, mama even asked whether i wanted to have dinner. This happiness, I can't explain. Then I realised that so many little things in your house changed in 2months. I wonder if there are still traces of me?

I miss your family so much you know? They were the reason I felt your love, the reason I held on.

2011-01-05T18:08:00.001+08:00

3 years of love won't leave just like that ♥ See you soon love.

2011-01-02T00:04:00.001+08:00

Fmlfmlfmlfmlfmlfmlfmlfmlfmlfmlfml

2010-12-23T22:46:00.001+08:00

If you must go, I wish you love,
you'll never walk alone. ♥

I'm sad. And i'm gna die working :(

2010-12-12T00:55:00.002+08:00

我不会爱的比你多，我不会在让自己受伤害。对不起。

Worked the past few days at Chinatown. So damn far and tiring :(

2010-12-05T00:18:00.003+08:00

My heart won't move for anyone :)

Long day tmr, loves.

2010-12-03T23:12:00.000+08:00

这心痛你能明白吗?

2010-12-02T02:49:00.002+08:00

New phone, life's awesomer. Hehe, everything's fine and nice and sweet. IT fair job's over, super tiring but fun and everyone's damn friendly! I miss the job although sales was just passable :( Been hanging out with my brothers and wj recently. Nice and sweet and happy.

Lenis darling, I miss you. I wish you happiness.

2010-11-24T03:40:00.002+08:00

This is what you are, I give up.

PROM WAS GREAT, LOVES!

2010-11-21T03:28:00.001+08:00

Baby, please be fine. I love you much more than you can ever imagine and love me back.